This is part two to my reflection on Disappointments With God by Philip Yancey.
See part one HERE.
Then there’s Job.
Oh this book in the Bible has always terrified me.
What if God chose to do this to me?
Would my faith survive?
My most impactful moment came on page 203 with Douglas. He had had a string of “bad luck”, health issues, an accident and now his wife was ill with cancer.
“I learned, first through my wife’s illness and then especially through the accident, not to confuse God with life.
Did I even read that correctly? I went back and read that again. I had to put the book down and ponder some…days went by.
Really? What does that mean?
“Life should be fair because God is fair. But God is not life. And if I confuse God with the physical reality of life – by expecting constant good health, for example
– then I set myself up for a crashing disappointment.”
As a Christian I hear of the power of healing and prayer for financial blessings, for health and good stuff…all I really want is love and relationship.
Am I odd? I’ve asked (don’t answer that).
Is it UNChristian not to believe that God wants to heal everyone? To me, one thing is certain, Christian or not, we’re going to die. It’s a promise. As Christians, that should be a somewhat exciting thought, going home.
**Please forgive me if this seems insensitive to anyone who is praying for healing – I’m not saying God won’t heal you, nor that I think you shouldn’t pray for healing, He can and often does…but the point I’m trying to make is that so often our disappointments in God separate us from His heart for us – and we only see a glimpse of His picture. We can pray for healing, but we can’t demand it!
We’re going to suffer, that is a promise too. But what if we made love and relationship the motivation behind life? Isn’t that what it’s all about? It all comes down to one thing (okay two).
Love and Relationship.
“Faith like Job’s cannot be shaken
because it’s the result of being shaken.”
It doesn’t sound as terrifying as I had once thought. Suddenly I am looking at it from a different perspective. I’m looking down from above, not up from earth. Suddenly the narrow view that pain has offered me had unveiled a whole new world. Job couldn’t bring himself to believe in a God of cruelty and injustice…and neither can I.
Much more was at stake than Job’s happiness.
What if life is to make us holy, not happy?
Maybe it isn’t about us at all.
It isn’t about us manipulating God to do our will
but Him positioning us to do His will.
Relationship. Love. More bubbles.
Without hope, there is no hope.
Where does my faith come from?
It comes from hope; from the knowledge that God is a God of love. He longs for relationship – us with one another and also with Him.
Yes, life is disappointing. We live in a fallen world and within each of us is a mountain of pain that is built by life.
No getting around it…